Where the hell did Reality go?

Yuck.

That is the only work to describe how I feel at the moment. I have a headache, probably from the drink(s) I had last night. I also decided to hang outside with the neighbors until midnight, instead of going to bed and getting some much needed rest. But, it was entertaining, and I don't get much grown-up interaction. I take what I can get. Kyle was inside on the 360 of course.

So, check this shit out: DH and I were talking yesterday. HE paid to have the Internet cut back on. Grrrrr. So I made a comment about how that was fine, but to remember when the bill comes due in 6 days, that I am not paying to have him get online and continue his extramarital affairs via face book. He had the nerve to say it didn't matter, and that he would talk to whomever he wanted and do whatever he wanted. Basically he told me to fuck off, he is going to keep fuckin' around however he can. I couldn't believe he would say that shit to my face. Then I got pissy about it and he had the nerve to hug me and say we needed to stay good friends for our daughter. ??? Really? Is this shit even real?

I truly feel like I live in one big fucking circus sometimes. This can't possibly be my life. How the hell did it get so extreme? I can not wrap my mind around the idea that someone could be that big of an asshole. It's so sad to think that this person use to be my best friend. I think that if we had never gotten married, we would still be good friends. But, then I wouldn't have my daughter, so I would rather have gone through all the drama and bullshit to have her, than to just have a friend. And a narcissistic friend at that!

This morning, when I woke up and got online, "History" was about 75 pages of porn and Internet dating sites. Go figure. I only checked because he came in around 2 am and accused me of deleting all his shit on the computer, which I didn't do. He woke the baby up with his loud mouth.

I rented Powder Blue yesterday. It was an okay movie. Oh, and Charm School was good. Brittney is finally gone. And Kyle thinks I'm a crazy bitch, ha!

Someone pinch me.